I love this song — “You Won’t Relent,” by Jesus Culture. It’s one of my favorites and as I was listening to it again today, I really thought about the words I was singing. “You won’t relent until You have it all…my heart is yours….come be the fire inside of me, come be the flame upon my heart until You and I are one…”
It’s amazing to know that we are pursued by a holy, powerful God. It’s overwhelming to think about Him going as far as giving up His own life so that we can be one with Him. He gave His all. And so He wants our all, too. God is relentless in His pursuit of us. Because He knows what He created us to be, He wants to mold us. He wants us to grow. He wants us to be fully in love with Him.
And with that knowledge, it can be easy to sing “my heart is yours…” and to pray for God to be in charge of our lives…but I think that, sometimes, we speak words such as these without really considering what we’re saying.
Because we say that we want God to be the most important part of our lives and then…when circumstances come about that begin to strip us of our comforts and what we’re used to having, be it people or financial security or routines, what do we do?
If you’re anything like me, then you might begin to panic.
Because when you’re in the midst of change — when you’re on the brink of stepping into the unknown or change of any kind, it doesn’t usually feel like a story-book adventure.
It feels, more than likely, like the world is falling apart.
Think of all the great men and women in the Bible who took leaps of faith to fully follow and obey God. They did not do so without pain. Consider Noah becoming the joke of the pre-flood world, Abraham’s heart ripping to shreds as he submitted his son’s life to God’s will, Peter jumping out of the boat in faith and then sinking in fear. These men didn’t change the world for God with an easy-peasy stroll down a flowering lane. They took risks. They stepped out. They took their desire to be one with God and put it into their every-day actions.
And in reality, when you seek God and want Him in charge of your life, things are gonna’ change. In the (paraphrased) words of a preacher I heard this past weekend, when discussing the guys that put a hole in a roof to get a sick man to Jesus — “When Jesus came to town, everyone got nervous. Because when Jesus came to town, that town got wrecked. If you invite Jesus in, He’s going to wreck your house.”
He doesn’t do this to hurt us. He does it so that we will become stripped of what holds us back in this world. He changes us so that we will be more like Him.
And maybe it feels frightening. But if we continue to surrender to Him and take these steps in faith, that fear will be replaced by His peace. When you trade just talking about working for God for actually physically doing work for God, you’re going to see God move and your trepidation will give way to victory. And believe me, He’s not going to ask anything of you that He wasn’t willing to do FOR you. Jesus didn’t walk an easy road, either. He left heaven, then left his earthly family, endured scorn and mockery, betrayal, etc. And finally, his desire for us was so strong that He sacrificed everything on the cross.
I guess what I’m trying to say is this: don’t back away from your journey when things get daunting. This is the time to relentlessly press on because it is when we feel weakest, when we know we can’t handle it on our own — that’s when we see God show up and awe us. That’s when we get ourselves out of the way and leave room for God to be the Great I AM.
“When you come looking for Me, you’ll find Me. Yes, when you get serious about finding Me and want it more than anything else, I’ll make sure you won’t be disappointed.” ~Jeremiah 29:13 (the Message)