Identity Crisis

Our Creator is detail-oriented.  The caterpillar has 228 separate muscles…on just its head.  A single elm tree has about 6 million leaves. Spiders produce 3 different kinds of silk, creating sixty feet of silk in one hour, while they generate oil on their feet so that they won’t stick to their own web.  And the human being?  Our bodies are working mechanisms, constantly circulating blood, breathing, digesting, adjusting our temperature, creating energy, using energy…there’s an endless list of internal maintenance that we don’t even have to think about.  It’s perfectly organized, down to the most minute detail.                                                      

So if God put that much attention into a caterpillar, a tree, and our physical bodies, how much love and focus do you think He put into who we are?  Psalm 139 talks about how God knows us before we are born — covering us in our mother’s womb, He forms us in every way. He gives us specific abilities and talents to use for His kingdom.  Your path, if you choose to walk with Him, is laid out for you and your personality — who you are —  is specific to that path.                                            

 I believe this is why one of satan’s most subtle and dangerous weapons is this: comparison.   We all do it. We look at other people and see how great they are at singing or speaking or running a fundraiser — and this voice in our head goes, “Why can’t I be as good as so-and-so at such-and-such?”  So our focus shifts to either feeling sorry for ourselves for our ’lack’ of talent, putting our energy into doing something we’re not called to do, just to prove to ourselves that we can, or even growing resentful towards other people because of their abilities.                         

Consider Cain. In Genesis 4, he offers the wrong sacrifice and, despite a direct warning from God, he puts all his concentration into being angry with his brother for having made an acceptable offering.  God reached out to him and said, “Why are you angry? Why is your face downcast? If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it.”

This was Cain’s opportunity to straighten things out. If he had listened to God and kept his focus on his relationship with God rather than Abel’s relationship, then this story would have a different ending. But rather than humbly admit that he needed grace and heeding God’s warning, he chose to think about how Abel had succeeded where he failed. His fury grew until it mastered him…and he murdered his own brother because of it.

Comparison — it’s a dangerous game. And although Cain is definitely an extreme case of envy-gone-wrong, the bottom line remains the same.  When you take your eyes off God and what He wants for you…when you  try to be someone else — you stop cultivating the gifts that God has given you for His glory.  This little tricky ploy can work all too well in distracting us from God’s perfect plan for us. Don’t buy into the lie that your particular gifts are not good enough to use for God. You ARE born with a purpose — and our all-knowing Creator has equipped you to fulfill it.

Don’t waste time wishing you were born with someone else’s skills or personality — allow God to use you, just as you are.  He created you to be you.  Don’t measure your failures and successes by someone else’s mistakes and accomplishments– measure your life by God’s Word.  To be truly yourself — to be really fulfilled — find your identity in the One who gave it to you.  He loves you — and He’ll take care of you and all the details in your life.


3 thoughts on “Identity Crisis

    1. Hey, Katie…I’m so glad to know that this maybe helped you in some way…God has really been working on me in the areas I wrote about. Hard lessons, but so so worth learning. I know you and I tend to come from the same sort of heart-place, so I’ll say this—keep trusting Him and His intentions for you. And you know I’m always here if you ever want to talk…

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