Going Visiting…

I was honored when one of my sweet friends from Christian Women Online, Julie, asked me to share part of my testimony on her blog. I hope that you’ll join me in discussing Idols, Altars, and Writer’s Block for today’s post at Gracefull Women…and then please take time to browse through Julie’s archives. I know you’ll find encouragement for your heart!

{May I offer a sneak peek?…

“It’s my mom’s fault that I’m writing this.

See, about a year and a half ago, I called her in a frustrated panic after a long while of unfruitful writing efforts. My novel came back from the agent as an ‘almost good enough’. My short stories kept getting rejected. And my new work was falling flat — so flat that I kept boring myself to sleep by the computer (literally). Knowing that my mother was kind of obligated to listen to me whine (not many people would sign up to hear someone moan about their writing habits), I called her up one night. The conversation went something like this:

Me: I don’t know what’s happening. I can’t write anything. Nothing. Every time I try to write a short story, it just crumbles. There are no new ideas!

Mom: Uh-huh?

Me: So, basically, I think I’m done. All I’ve wanted to do my whole life is write and now I’m in permanent writer’s block. I don’t know what to do about it! Is it time to give up?

Silence. I’m thinking she’s coming up with some inspirational speech. Some motivation, some prayerful hope. At least some motherly sympathy.

Mom: laughter. Lots of loud, loud laughter.

Me: (She’s not even listening! She’s watching people make funny faces on YouTube!) Um, Mom? Did you hear me?

Mom: (Catching her breath though the laughter) I heard you! It’s just so funny!

Me: (feel free to ascribe a high-pitched tone here): Funny?!?!?!

Mom: Yes! Because I’ve been praying that God would step in and help you to use your writing for what He wanted instead of those depressing stories you’ve been writing!

Me: You’ve been praying about my writing.

Mom: Yep.

Me: And I haven’t been able to write anything.

Mom: That’s what you’re telling me.

Me: This writer’s block is all your fault.

Mom: Sounds like something you need to talk to God about.

Me: Speechless. And thinking — but what if He takes it away?

What if He takes it away?

Even as I thought it, I heard the truth behind that question. A truth that was hard for me to hear coming from my own heart.

My devotion was to this dream instead of to the Dream-Giver. An idol was front and center in my life….”

I hope to share the rest of this story with you over at Gracefull Women! }

Have a wonderful weekend, friends!


One thought on “Going Visiting…

  1. I’ve tried a few times to read the rest of your post but the Graceful Women site keeps crashing ???? I’d love to read the rest. I have a similar story about coming to the place where I discovered my writing had replaced God as the centre. Eye opening!

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