What Matters

It has been a week of busy days…a week of need-to-do and want-to-do and never quite feeling like enough has been done…but I take a deep breath and remember Kailey’s laughter as she chased rainbow-lace-bubbles floating over the grass. I remember Christian’s voice singing all boisterous and free after choir practice at school. I remember the gleam in Sean’s eyes as he sketched a still-life of a lamp in the living room, his pride as he showed me the finished picture. I choose to remember moments like these…the laughter of an inside joke with Neil, the adventure of stopping at a thrift store to see what might be found, the peace of all three kids involved in their books, the joy of all three singing out praise-songs on the way home from church. I will be thankful for these moments, for the time given to me so that I can give it to them. I have had to learn to let go of tightly clutched agendas because love must come first. Everything else that has been marked off a list or is still waiting…most of those things aren’t going to make a forever-impact. But love does.

Investing time…investing attention and heart-focus….investing you  — it matters to the people around you.

And it matters to our Father.

Earlier this week, this was the devotion Christian read aloud at bedtime:

“Am I listening for God’s voice? Or am I listening for my own? I would love to do big things. And maybe I will. But is God really shouting, ‘Go and do big things’? Or is He simply whispering, ‘Come to Me’? Matthew 11:28 says – ‘Come to Me’.”

He wants our hearts listening to Him as He listens to us. He desires communion…He desires to share in our joy and our sorrow. He wants relationship over accomplishments. And in time with Him, we find He smooths away the ragged edges of striving and fear. He soothes the anxious heart. He bears our weakness and gives His own strength.  Instead of being so caught up in doing, we can rest in what He has already done for us…and we can simply be.

For He doesn’t examine what has been marked off your list, but the motivation that made that list in the first place. He doesn’t find your value in what you’ve done, but in who you are…a man or woman made in the Father’s image, surrendered to Him.  That’s the heart He works through…the one pursuing Him and not another checked off goal.

Maybe you will do ‘big’ things. Maybe you will mark every ‘small’ thing off your to-do list…maybe we will simply do the things that must be done for our days to cycle onward in a responsible manner.

But the biggest thing of all, every time, is how we are already loved by our Savior…how we love Him…and how we love the people in our lives.  What matters at the end of every week…at the end of every day…at the end of every life…are those things that will be carried forward into eternity.

For our weekend – I pray that we will quiet our hearts, even if the schedule is busy and the house all chaos, and put our focus on Him. I pray we will see His love in the ever-changing sky, in the Words we see by, in every thing He has made and given. I pray we will find joy in the small things and grace in everything. I pray that we will be so filled with His love and His presence that we will overflow peace and gladness, a water-fall of love over the ones who share our time and our space. I pray that we will love as we are loved.

(And this song is like finding a treasure – because it is the prayer I feel, the words I wanted to find.)

“Day is Dimming”

The day is dimming and I’m yearning for You.
I won’t be satisfied till I see Your face.
Every victory, every loss,
every tick, every cross –
You can put them all in place.

It seems I’m finding more of why
in these moments
I feel like I’m made to sing of how good You are.
The more the years swell by and pass
each seconds more than last.
It’s true by far.

That no profound thought or clever rhyme,
no soaring grand, melodic line.
No theory, philosophy or sign
can explain it,
can explain.

Where You are, I wanna be.
It’s Your love that has changed me.
I’d give the world, and all it’s charms
for a moment in Your arms.
Better is one day with You
than a thousand elsewhere,
a thousand elsewhere….

I still remember what it felt like before You.
I’m grateful every day for how things have changed,
I’ll thank You every way I can
’cause my life only began
when I heard You call my name.

Now, no praise of man,
no great acclaim,
no humble looking kind of fame,
no power, wealth or worldly gain
could satisfy me,
could every satisfy.

Where You are, I wanna be.
It’s Your grace that has raised me,
I’d give my whole life to honor You
in whom I live,
in whom I move.
Better is one day with You
than a thousand elsewhere.

Better is one day in Your courts,
better is one day in Your house,
better is one day in your courts
than anywhere else, oh-
lead me, lead me,
lead me to Yourself…
lead me to Your heart.

Where You are, I wanna be.
It’s Your love that has changed me.
I’d give my life, to honor You
in whom I live
and whom I move.
Better is one day with You
than a thousand elsewhere,
a thousand elsewhere….

Lead me to Yourself,
lead me to Your heart.
I’ll be found in You,
I’ll be found in You.
Here is peace,
here is joy,
here is life,
here is freedom, freedom.

~Brooke Fraser

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3 thoughts on “What Matters

  1. Mmmhmmmm . . . I had just paused to pray earlier today that God would help me not just rush through devotions so I could check them off my to-do list, but that I could meet with Him and enjoy the time with Him. What a great reminder!

    1. 🙂 I definitely need this reminder for myself at times! There’s this song I love that has this line: “I don’t wanna’ talk about You like You’re not in the room, I wanna’ look right at You, wanna’ speak right to You’…and it often comes to mind when I get more concerned about what I’m trying to do ‘for’ Him rather than being with Him…by the way, I haven’t had much blog-commenting time for the past few days, but I’ve read your posts all week and they’ve been bright spots in my days…just want to make sure that you know your words are an encouragement to me!

      1. Great lyrics! I am always thankful for your comments and the chance to hear your thoughts, but I totally understand busyness!!

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