It is New Year’s Eve and I am resisting the pull of the date. On the last day of the year, I have a tendency to re-hash and review, make lists, plan goals, and number resolutions in my journal.
All of these are good things to do, of course. It can be healthy to take a fresh look at where we are, where we’ve been, and where we want to go…but on this eve of 2015, I am longing for a rest, a moment of soul-stillness.
Instead of critiquing (even constructively!) my days of 2014, I just want to be thankful that these weeks were given to me, that I’ve had 365 more days with my family. I want to remember the sheer joy of my children when they woke to snow falling this past winter, the miracle of seeing my niece come into this world last spring, the beauty of deer in the early morning sunshine, the rabbits that met me nearly every day (same spot on the road, same quizzical expressions) I ran through my neighborhood this summer, the sun’s glorious color rising over the sea, the sound of children’s voices on a Sunday morning singing out – o, come let us adore Him. I am thankful for every book I read, every song that spoke my heart, every breakfast-for-dinner (especially the pancakes), every movie date with my husband, every night we all stopped on the sidewalk to look up at a sky full of stars. I am grateful for every single time I felt the wonder of His love, His presence abiding with me.
And as for next year – there will be time for the plans and the lists. Today, maybe we can just take a little time to know that His mercies are new every morning and His fresh strength is not going to fail us with the turn of the calendar. Maybe we can, simply, rest in the knowledge that we are loved. Maybe, today, we rest in the truth that His great faithfulness goes behind and before us.
This is my prayer for New Year’s Eve…that we will not linger in regret or should-haves – knowing that Christ’s mercy leaves no condemnation…I pray we will be grateful for what we have been given, the people we love, the moments we opened our eyes to beauty…I pray that we will face the future with hope and with gladness, because we are confident that His grace will guide us through whatever shall come. May we breathe deeply in this space of today and love our God with all our heart, mind, soul, and strength. I pray we will find our rest-note in this final measure of this year…and, filled anew with the breath of His Spirit, we will open our hearts and sing in the new year.